Great to read your reflections Chris. It made me think of a promising relationship I ended. My partner not making the time to maintain his health was one of the first signs that he suffered from a engrained lack of belief in himself which he didn't want to overcome. How were we going to build a great life together if he wasn't going to find motivation to do something he enjoys and look after himself?
I recently wrote about that in a committed relationships we share gut flora profile and future life outcomes. I want to do what I can to decrease chances of future disease and it pained me to watch another person's health decline from a lack of awareness and motivation. Maybe it is because I am neurodiverse that I have such a 'logic' based approach to this, but just wanted to share what goes through some people's minds...
It is a really complicated topic you are writing about; I like how you validate your feelings. I am surprised at the motivating effect it had on me to make even more of an effort with my own appearance.